Editor's note: Bethany Supper is a contestant in Wadena's Biggest Loser contest who is journaling her progress for our readers.
These last few weeks I've really felt discouraged.
Losing nine pounds in a couple of weeks, and then losing nothing really makes a person very pessimistic about this competition. No matter though, I know that if I put my all into this competition I can win. That's just what I plan on doing, too.
I know in the beginning I said every day you need to give 100 percent in this competition in order to win. Unfortunately, my 100 percent just kicked in. That might cost me the competition, but considering I've already lost 22 pounds and counting, (hopefully) I really feel like I've won something. Whether it be the new found confidence in myself, or how I can walk a mile without feeling exhausted, or just the energy I have to get off the couch and play with my son since he's been born, I truly feel like I'm coming out of this a winner.
Talking about having energy and such, let me tell you some of the perks of losing 22 pounds. There are the totally exciting things like walking a mile or jogging one, but there are more subtle things as well that make me really feel great, and I will be honest, I tend to brag a little. One thing that means a lot to me, and every over weight person knows what I mean when I say this, my thighs don't rub together when I walk or jog anymore. Ever since I was pregnant my thighs have rubbed together, and I'm sure everyone will agree, it makes it that much harder to exercise.
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Another thing is I really do have 110 percent more confidence in myself. Women in general are the worst critics on earth. After I had my son, I went shopping at malls for clothes, but I always felt out of place because I was overweight and every single item of clothing made these days, are made for women who wear size 1. I am not even lying when I say, I took an adult women's tank top from a store that said it was a size large, and it fit on my 4-year-old niece. If that doesn't make you want to give up shopping for life, I don't know what does.
I was disgusted and frightened at the same time. I was so scared that I would have to wear sweat pants and a hooded sweat shirt the rest of my life. Now, I have the confidence to go into the mall and pick out clothes, and if some women who weighs 110 pounds gives me the, "you're-too-fat-to-be-in-this-store eye" that women give, I can just shrug it off because I'm pretty proud of myself for the weight that I've lost.
